Hi long time no see ah??? haha...anyways this journal will be use to let out some of my recent feelings...caused by someone...that it should be considered a "Role Model" (if you dont want to read it, Its okay)
If you are wondering of who i am talking...i am talking about...My Mom... my mom is a teacher and even thought i hate teacher's, i always admired her because she focus in teaching to people but..today she just showed me how she really wanted to live her life, she said "omg i want to be stupid, so smart people do the stuff and i just stay there being stupid but i lose everytime there's always someone that say "i am stupid i dont know how to do this" before me..."
With those words...i no longer believe in my mother...oh and she said "i wish i could have born blonde and stupid"...with that she just lost...all my believe and trust in her. People like her...are the fault that i hate and repudiate the "Team Work"...because of people that act "stupid" to do nothing. I know those kinda of people will never accomplish nothing and they will never have the true sensation of "Achievement" and "Self Proud". And now the simple fact that she "Teache's" people with that "Life Philosopy" just...demoralize me and make me lose hope in the future. Oh and another important thing she said and make me question "Where i come from?" is that she said "i dont know how to do this...so i will just let another person to do it or i will quit/leave it" that thing...made me really question where i come from...i am someone that is looking to get better and bettter and better in stuff and try new things and at less get a medium level on that "new thing".
So There, that's all if you read it all, thanks you for reading i really appreciate it. If you didn't, you are in your rights to not do it so meh.
P.D.: That feeling that you get, when someone that you admire and idolize goes to the trash when you know the true. *sigh*
P.D.2: Looks like getting better and evolve in a better person its highly overrated. Thanks god i see Anime and Play Games, they teach me to be better.